Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Meridith's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 5th, 2003
4:22 pm	I'm so excited. Tomorrow my boyfriend and I are taking a little trip to go gambling and I am really hoping that I win something. This is like our first vacation since we have been together (for almost a year now!!!) and I am really super stoked. Vacation sex is always so much better and exciting! Can't wait the anticipation is killing me. Won't be able to sleep tonight, must take sleeping pill. Anyway, hopefully if we win I will have some extra dough to go shopping for *OUR* new house! I can't wait till we move out of this shit hole. Every month something else breaks and the reality won't pay for it. Cheap bastards! I think that the only reason that I moved into these apartments originally was because (1) they were cheap, (2) the name of the reality had my name in it and I thought that that was pretty cool. But now it just seemed like a bad idea no matter how cheap they are. But my bad. So excited.....must pack! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 18th, 2003
11:49 am	Why do boys always have to make everything more difficult than it has to be? And why the helldo nosey ass people got to be up in everyone else's business and can't just worry about their own? Stupid Bitches! I guess this one girl just wants my man or some shit but she needs to learn how the fuck to stay out of my shit before I have to lay the smackdown on her ass! How come she has to talk so much shit like she is in high school again. I mean come on. ANd then on top of that I got him being all suspicious and shit because of her shit. URGGG! It makes me want to scream! Stupid Bitch! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 3rd, 2003
2:09 pm	Work sucks today. I wanna go kidnapp Youngblood and take him home and snuggle up in a warm bed with him....then later tear him to pieces! He HE! We haven't seen much of each other in a while...grown-up life sucks, it's incredibly lonely. Maybe I shouldn't have failed out of college and then have to get a full time job. And now pretty soon I get to go to junior college with all the little painsy ass freshmen and high school drop outs. Oh Joy. Yeah, I got to go and blow $500 of my hard earned cash on school today....I better fucking pass all of my classes or I'm going to be extremely pissed off at myself. When you pay for school, and not your parents or the state or financial aide, it really brings into perspective how much I fucked off those two years with my free ride. Anyway, school will just mean more time that Youngblood and I will be apart. Last night he didn't get home from work until 130 (and thats am not pm). He said that this time of year until August is when he does most of his business. Whoever knew that that many people got tattoos? I mean I have a few, but damn. I guess if you are trying to be original tattoos aren't the way to go anymore. I still like them though...mine are damn sexy and his are even finer. But back from my tangent. I've really missed him lately things just don't seem the same. I wish that we could both have a few days off from work to just be together and not do shit jsut be lazy ass bums. Here's to wishful thinking. Oh yeah, if my fairy godmother is out there.... (Comment on this)
10:54 am	Ok so the new year is here once again. Let me tell you...my new yars eve was so exciting that I don't even think you deserve to hear about it. Take that mother fucker. No, but seriously...it SUCKED. We did absolutely nothing. Which in a way was good but I wish that we could have gone out and had a few drinks or something. I came home from work, found my extremely hung over boyfriend in the bed (nad yes I'm still upset that he left for Pelham and I had to stay home all by my lonesome)laid down with him and we both slept until about 10. Byh the time we got up we were like fuck it. But we had some fucking excellent Vietnamease takeout...which always makes life a little better. By the time that midnight rolled we were like happy new year....the end. But as I understand it there were many good times had by others. Apparently Amber and Jason got really smashed and lots of titties were let loose. Also, did Heather show hers too? Obviously I should have been there. But oh well, I got to spend the night like an old person. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 31st, 2002
3:05 pm	Last night I just realized how much of an insecure person I am. MY boyfriend and I live together as everyone knows we sleep in the same bed every night and I would never even dream of cheating on him. But last night after he got off work and came home he informed me that he was going over to an old friend's house in Pelham and wouldn't be back home. Now I don't know if I got upset about that because of how my relationships have been previously or if I was slightly a bit jealous because he did not invite me because he knew that I had to get up at the ass crack of dawn to go to work. But anyway I was not mad but upset..you know the feeling when shit just don't feel right and you feel like vomiting all over the place. Well that's how I felt. I wonder if he would ever sleep with another girl. I have serious trust issues when it comes to men. Listen to me, I'm Bruce...I'm supposed to help men figure out women and I'm supposed to help women not be so whiney. Listen to me for christ sake. I am fucking pitiful. But I feel bad for thinking that he might cheat on me because what if he puts like all this trust into me and I don't trust him at all. After all he is just a man right? Men always feel the need to conqure new territory and women are just another medium for their sexual conquests. But anyway last night I kept thinking that he was having all this fun and I was having none. Needless to say, after he left I drank until I passed out. Polished off the beer and vodka. I am a hell of a drinker if I must say so myself but again most of you already knew this. And another thing...;he said that he would make sure and be back into town today by my lunch break. Yeah right, like that really happened. I'm just a stupid girl what more can I say. For a minuet there I started to actually have faith in the human race again. That got fucked up fast. Now, here is one stipulation for all of you out there.....if you comment on this at all you better now what the fuck you are talking about and how to make me feel better. Tell me if I'm crazy but explain why. I don't like these girly feelings they annoy me. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 15th, 2002
11:39 pm	Well, I was born one day (for those who don't know)and down the road a lot of shit has happened. But who cares about that, huh? Oh yeah, you do. Well about a month ago is when shit got wierd I guess. I'll start with before spring break...I got a job after looking for one for about six months and funny thing, now that I have one everybody else wants to give me a job. People are srtange. Ummm, I have this boyfriend that I haven't talked to in almost a month now. He lives in Memphis and I hardly ever see him but he just decided not to call me anymore I guess. I wish I could say that I really missed talking to him but it's wierd I don't even miss him at all, I don't even think about him during the day or anything like I'm supposed to. I went to the mall yesterday to exchange some pants that my mom bought for me and I had an experience with this bitchy sales person. I was in line and had the pants and another pair that I was going to exchange them for, I handed her the pants and said that I wanted to do the exchange, she takes them out of the bag and tells me that she will not take them back because they had cat hair on them. By now I get pretty pissed because I had spent about an hour in the store and now she is giving me this shit. I just lost it with this woman, I cussed her to hell and back and just left. I just couldnt understand why she would not take the pants back, just over some cat hair? What the fuck. So anyway, needless to say that I want ever shop in that store ever again. (Comment on this)